A broken soul still capable of loving

My blog is dead. Totally ain't no mood to write anything since months ago.
I was pretty much tired of doing so many events & sponsors write up because I have to input so many informations that won't make the post any interesting for me to keep writing. To be honest, I wasn't paid, only with sponsored stuff which I won't be able to finish using them. I not the freebie goer kind of person. They end up just sitting in my house taking up space.

My interest for blogging is not writing stuff I don't enjoy writing.
So you see, I stopped going for events I am not interested in or not that interested in. And I strongly feel that client should be paying for efforts. Time is everything.

I am also going through a lot in life recently. These past few months was one of a kind experiences. I met many new people. I was overwhelmed and I was happy to some extend. There were unhappy moments as well because I decided to be honest and be myself.

These few months, I had struggles and I was trashed badly. I was pulled lower than I thought I would go. I felt totally insecure. My self esteem went down to almost nothing. I doubt myself. I wasn't as confident of myself anymore and I felt like I was to blame for all the unhappiness. The only reason is because, I lost myself for somebody else. I looked up to the wrong person, I trusted the wrong people.

I cried endless nights & days during quarrels and arguments. I felt like I am the bad guy. I am to be blamed. I asked myself to leave everything behind. I asked myself to forget everything that had happened. I asked myself to let myself off. Many times I knew I have to walk away. My heart and emotions took over. Everything went haywire over and over again. It's suffocating and I was drowning.

I gave everything I have, they were so important but were unappreciated.

I was so focus on gaining approval and making everyone else happy, I forgot about myself. I forgot to stand firm on my believes, my principle, even nearly my dignity.

It was devastating.
I love them and I want them to be happy but I forgot to really love myself.

I wasn't allow to tell anybody about anything, not even my family members. And so, I had "no one" to confine in. I had to confess, I had thoughts of suiciding to end the pain I am feeling.

Until now, I haven't really got over whatever that happened. It was just about a week ago, I started to really force myself to leave these toxin mess behind. After seeing what I least want to see, I had to believe that it was never right to begin with.

God gave me many red signals, telling me so many things through their actions and it was me who was blinded by my heart.
My instincts & my brain analysed and told me things but I refused to listen to it and ignored them. Some people we have to let go regardless of how much we want them in our life.

I am still fixing this broken young soul and heart. My career is not doing well either. I am just glad, to have people supporting me. At least, you guys are the reason I am still moving forward.

Social media doesn't show everything. At least for me, I didn't want to have a negative influence on people. I find that, there isn't a need for me to spread further negativity. The world needs more positivity... regardless how fake it could be.

The things I have learnt:
1) Truly love & believe in yourself a lot no matter what!
2) We cannot judge a book by its beautiful perfectly decorated cover.
3) Be fake to certain people, because they don't deserve the real you
4) Only let certain people into your life
5) They are not my main friends
6) Choose to be positive on the right things, otherwise it's native
7) Take things easier
8) Do not worry about anything!
9) Care less if not it's just being careless to your heart
10) Appreciate who I am and what I have now, it's definitely much better than if I don't.
11) Do not trust easily.
12) Keep my mouth shut!

Eventually,  I will be ok again. I will walk out fine.

Relationship Trusts Issues

Hello everybody,

Have you ever had this weird feeling in you and you don't even know exactly what it is?
It's so confusing and mixed up.

So many things happen in my life and a lot of time I had mixed feelings. Sometimes I don't even know whether am I suppose to be happy about those feelings or be worry about them.

It is really contradicting me, my thoughts and eventually it will kind of affect the decision I made in the end.

Recently, I had those mixed feelings again.
I meet new people every single time and every single time I have doubts about them. The only difference is, how deep are they. I think having doubts in someone is when you don't trust them, especially those that you know didn't trust you at all.

How can I trust someone that didn't trust me?

There's a saying that goes like this: "To know if you can trust someone, is to first trust them."

REALLY? 

Because I got broke big time doing that in the past. Is that a lesson to learn or not?

I had people that clearly show me that they don't trust me and I totally can understand that uncomfortable feeling inside you. It's like you want to say something or share something but you can't. And all you can do, is to keep it to yourself and swallow that bomb.

Speaking of which, recently new people gave me a lot of negative feelings. Like clearly they're telling me that: "Hey you, I'm judging you big time, don't mess it up."

I don't like people to judge me and treat me judgementally. Sometimes, I felt like I had a sudden dropped in my confidence level when this judgemental HUMAN commented negatively behind my back to a third party and I happened to know. (I always know)

Really?! Is that how people see me? Is that how I come across to people? Do everybody think the same way as you do about me? Am I that bad? :(

I have never really felt so badly judged before! :[ It's terrible.

After a while, I am like, HECK IT! HECK YOU! 

Why should I even care about what you think? You barely just know me. In fact, I admit that because you are judging me, I am influenced by you to judge you. I'd probably had lots of thoughts and assumption about you as well. 

^ Yes. This is what I meant by mixed feelings and thoughts.

It's like drowning.

It's a lot similar to struggling; thoughts v.s. feelings; between your heart and your mind; to keep yourself together and to remember that you are the most beautiful lady living on the planet.

It's really about that negative vibe some people give you, and you just don't want to take it!

It's so not a welcome gift for a first impression, especially, when I am kind of your guest?

Like seriously? Sometimes, I really want to just go right up to their face and say, who the hell you think you are to judge me?!

But then again, I'd probably won't do that. 

CONTRADICTING RIGHT? YES I KNOW. :[

I can be really angry about them.

I chose not to get so angry easily now, because I don't want too much negative vibe and feelings.

I don't want to waste time on something so meaningless, like being angry or sad.

People died everyday.

Nobody ain't got time for that.

*

Shit feelings. 

*

You can't please everybody Evalee.

God placed you here now for a reason. 

Well, thank you for reading, if you are reading. 

For now, I'm going to prepare for bedtime.

I will continue on this trust issue post again.

Stay tuned for more personal stuff. (My rants perhaps)

xoxo- signing off.

Visit XXX Centre Clinic at your RISK / Dr XXX

According to the Singapore Medical Council, these are the list of Ethical Code a doctor is suppose to comply to.

Directly screenshot from : http://www.healthprofessionals.gov.sg/content/dam/hprof/smc/docs/guidelines/SMC%20Ethical%20Code%20and%20Ethical%20Guidelines.pdf

Here's what happen, I was printing my new set of name card at 91 Bencoolen Street and during the waiting time before the cards are ready, I decided to search for a clinic nearby which accept CHAS card holder.

CHAS is basically a form of medical benefit/subsidies scheme.

I thought I was so lucky to have found a clinic, XXX Centre Clinic.

In addition, there's a female doctor. I need a female doctor because I need to consult on certain female related concerns and maybe get some medication or something to solve the problem I am facing recently.

I was happy to be able to save some time while waiting and make use of the time in between to see a doctor. 

So I headed to XXX Centre Clinic and I knew I am going to be consulting Dr XXX as I had done my research and I know that she is the only female doctor and the only doctor there in fact. I felt safer to go to her because her name is all over when I google, which apparently should means that she is pretty experience in the industry as a doctor.

SO why not right? Everything seem in place for me.

Located at 1 Rochor Rd, Rochor Centre, Singapore 180001.

Let skip all the counter registration and all, their counter service is okay. Now let go into the topic when it's my turn to see Dr XXX.

Here's the conversation, not word for word but along the line. I won't be telling you guys what I am consulting in details because it's literally girl matter and it's totally my own privacy.

Dr XXX: So tell me...

Me: Ok. Recently the condition got worse. I had this going on for quite a long time, only about recently maybe a month or so that it changes and become slightly serious. I have been researching on the net.... and.. 

(I GOT CUT OFF BY DR XXX.) 

(I WANTED TO CONTINUE SAYING WHAT I FEEL AND THINK)

Dr XXX: Ok stop stop stop, I don't want to hear what you know from the internet or what you think or anything or whatever , because that is not what I want to know (AND SHE SAID ALOT OF OTHER THINGS WHICH I CAN'T MUCH REMEMBER, ALL I KNOW IS, FOR SURE SHE DOESN'T WANT TO HEAR ME OUT & INDEED NAGGY & LONG WINDED) .... I only want you to tell me what is happening to you. (IN MY HEART...ISN'T IT WHAT I'M DOING NOW).

Me: (DUMB FOUNDED) (OK FINE, SHE PROBABLY MAKE SENSE) Ok. My Di___char___ turn G____, and sometimes a lot. (SHE CUT ME AGAIN)

Dr XXX Oh . Must be. You have ___. (ME DUMBFOUNDED AGAIN) 

Me: Eh no... I never have ___.( KANNA CUT IN AGAIN)

Dr XXX: Now I have to know how old are you.

Me: 25 years old.

Dr XXX: Now just answer my questions, I have to ask you these questions because it's important for me to determine.

Me: Ok.

Dr XXX: Is it pain?

Me: No

Dr.XXX: Is it itchy?

Me: No

(SURPRISINGLY SHE DIDN'T ASK THE SMELL PART)

Dr XXX: Do you have a boyfriend? 

Me: Yes

Dr.XXX: Regular or you have multiple boyfriend , you change boyfriend , your boyfriend have other girls (AND IT GOES ON) Sorry I have to ask this question, I know it's a bit intimating but I have to know (WHICH I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE THE CHANCE TO SPEAK!) 

Me: no. 1 boyfriend.

Dr XXX: Regular boyfriend.

Me: Regular? Ya only 1 boyfriend.

Dr XXX: yes normally if you have ___ before , it's common to have this symptoms and this could lead to other possible illness or condition you might have (THE TALKING GOES ON, AND ACTUALLY I KNOW BECAUSE I RESEARCH BEFORE) 

Me: But I didn't have ___ before.....(CUT AND INTERRUPTED)

(I thought she heard it though)

Dr XXX: Did you have regular p_____?

Me: Depends . No in recent months.

Dr XXX: What is the interval like?

Me: Some times late 2 weeks.

Dr XXX: Ok when is it the last time?

Me: last end month

Dr XXX: And the month before?

Me: hmmmm. Around Mid of the month.
(Anyway she is getting quite impatient to wait for me to calculate and recall. I don't keep track of it even I know I should, it's all estimated time, that is why I need some time to recall back)

Dr XXX: Now I need to test and see how bad is the condition. (she shouted for the clinic assistant and shouted do HP or don't know what HV or what thing , it was all so quick)

(She got me to lie down at the sick bed and ask me to take off ______) (I was super confused and like "what is happening" ?)

Dr XXX: yea just take off ______. all the way, all.

Me: oh..ok..everything? ok...

(The next moment I know she already had a glove on and roughly smearing some liquid or gel that feels cooling on the area) 

AND FUCK! I tell you horrible experience!

There was a sharp pain and I said stop. I saw what she was doing and I am really guessing, I saw plastic clinical tool or something. And I told her it hurts. she tell me is ok just relax, very fast one. It happened a couple of 2-3 times and I felt kind of forced and coaxed. She even wanted to switch to the mental one! The last try I really cannot take the pain and I shouted very loudly saying "It's pain! I didn't ever have ___ and I am still a ______, are you sure you are going to still put that in me?!

(BY THE WAY, SHE SAID IT'S IN ! A LITTLE MORE! WTF WHEN I HEARD THAT- MY HEART SANK) (NOW I WONDER IF SHE IS COAXING ME ONLY OR FOR REAL)

Mr XXX: OHHHH I thought you had ____ before, I ask you if you have a regular boyfriend and you said yes. (NON-STOP PUSHING BLAME ON ME)

(WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE TALKING ABOUT MANZ! REGULAR BOYFRIEND MEANS NOTHING!)

I was dumbfounded, traumatize, totally just stunned from whatever that just happened.

Now I know how a raped victim feels. 

I am like huh. BASICALLY IF YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPEN.

I LITERALLY FELT INVADED!

I don't want to go on with the details or what happen anymore...

ALL I KNOW WAS, THE CRAZY OLD BITCH THAT IS DESTROYING A YOUNG INNOCENT LADY PURITY! 

CBCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCBCCB!

Really can't take it.

I cried after I left the clinic, on the phone with my younger sister and then my boyfriend. I couldn't help it but it was a terrible feeling. Even as I was writing this post, I felt really agitated and affected.

My elder sister ask me to lodge a report, but do you now that just literally talking about it like that in the post is difficult already. I wish I can elaborate it in detail. 

My younger sister who is a certified nurse was so angry upon hearing it. She said a doctor / nurse are not suppose to take assumption and are suppose to hear a patient out.

I repeated don't know how many times that I didn't have ____ before ! AND can't Dr XXX tell I am still a _______ ??? IT'S FREAK OBVIOUS JUST BY LOOKING AT IT RIGHT? EVEN SOME OF US CAN TELL! The ffreaking____ IS SO SMALL! 

BACK TO THE TOPIC OF ETHIC .

http://www.medicalcouncil.ie/News-and-Publications/Publications/Information-for-Doctors/Guide-to-Professional-Conduct-and-Ethics-for-Registered-Medical-Practitioners.pdf

TOTALLY NO towards the above! I feel that Dr XXX wasn't that concern and she wasn't sensitive and understanding with me. She didn't exercise good judgement and the communication between me and her failed as well. AND there's no clinical advice or did she even explain to me what is she going to do to me next. The evidence is so clear and she didn't search for the best evidence to guide her practice! My younger sister said that she probably wanted to earn more money that is why she rushed into doing that stupid test that doesn't suit me clearly.

I am still contemplating whether I should lodge a complain to Singapore Medical Council. 

AS you know, lodging such complain is just like taking it to court, lots of effort, work and emotion to handle.

I am writing this post at the least I can do to warn everyone out there especially ladies, to avoid visiting XXX Centre Clinic or rather visiting Dr XXX!

Now I learnt my lesson. Doesn't mean an old experience doctor are trustable.

AND be more skeptical and not let anyone do anything to you unless you completely know exactly what they are doing. Just be more sensitive to the words of strangers!

VISIT DR XXX AT YOUR OWN RISK!

Especially on sensitive matters.

TO SAVE OTHERS PLEASE SHARE.

BETTER BE SAFE THAN SORRY.

Go and guess who is Dr XXX and XXX centre clinic which is located at 1 Rochor Road.

I am sure you know.

Thrill with Krispy Kreme - Just queue!

Hello all, I am actually using the blogger app on iPhone 5s to blog. 

Let's see how convenient it is. This is going to be my first post using a smartphone hahahaa. 

Today is like a monsoon day, raining everywhere, not convenient to go place to place. However me and Stella got so thrill with shopping and Krispy Kreme!

And indeed it is just as delicious as expected. Always been looking at instagram photos and tweets about it and finally I get to try it myself.

Bought a dozen home for family and boyfriend ^_^ 

Krispy Kreme best flavor goes to it's original glaze ! However they do have cute looking Christmas theme donuts available. Which I think should be not bad too hahahaa. 

Before I end the night ! Here's a photo spam of me and Stella while waiting for our original glaze donuts to be ready! 

Guess what we have to wait for it to arrive to the store because it's out of stock and it's like freaking 10pm! @.@ so many people getting them. 

Stella was like "oh no! Quick must exactly 10pm because if not later don't have already ! "

We are typical singaporean for that hour hahahaa!

But it's the satisfaction of getting something after you put in effort to . Lol. :p 

You guys should really join in the fun and queue up for it with your friends hahahaaa! 

Gdnight and enjoy a cooling night ahead! 

Blogging from the phone - signing off ~~

EvaleeQx 

Meet xinmsn’s Mr & Ms Selfie 2013

Updated: Thursday, 21 November 2013 07:30

Meet xinmsn’s Mr & Ms Selfie 2013

Two winners walked away with a Nokia Lumia 1020 handset each

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Best face forward: For two weeks in late October, we invited our Facebook fans to strike their best poses in our first ever Mr and Ms Selfie contest. Contestants were tasked to present their pictures in the best light possible and had to rally votes from friends, family (and even online strangers) in their respective categories to win the title of xinmsn’s Mr and Ms Selfie 2013.

Out of the 179 entries submitted in this contest, Evalee Lin Qiao Xuan and Daryl Seah stood out amongst their peers with their cheeky expressions, smart use of angles and camera filters. Evalee racked in a total number of 1,451 votes while Daryl topped the men’s category with 563 votes.

In reward of their narcissistic efforts, both Evalee and Daryl have won themselves each a Nokia Lumia 1020 handset, one of the latest mobile device on the market that boasts of a 41 Megapixel camera.

We would like to thank all our users and fans for making this contest a success! Keep practicing that 45-degree angle pose and till next time.

Like our Facebook page for latest updates and exclusive insights to events!

THANK YOU FOR ALL THE SUPPORT!

YOU GUYS MADE THIS POSSIBLE! :D

Selling My IPHONE 4 Covers

Hi Guys! 

I am doing some selling here this time. I will be changing my phone soon and I realized I had tons of IPhone 4 covers which I find it still new and some second hand really in good condition.

So I am selling them at a super uber cheap prices with free Normal Postage. Literally more than 50% less the original price I got them. (*Heart Pain* But never mind la)

Here are the brand new ones that you can bring home at $5.

For this one below, it's for SAMSUNG S - Mild Translucent white. (Rubber-ish)

And the next three IPhone 4 covers are Second Hand but hardly use, use awhile I get new cover again. LOL

These are going at $5 too!

The last three cover below are my precious covers. LOL. 

1st cover (GOLDEN) - $5

2nd cover (HELLO KITTY RUBBER COVER) - $8

3rd cover ( PRINCESS CASTLE- Fly from Thailand - Pop Up graphics) - $8

If you are interested in any of it, you can leave a comment on this post with your email and details or either  you can email me directly at evaleelinqiaoxuan@gmail.com .

All transaction via POSB Transfer - (Acct No. provided upon confirmation of buyer) ^_^

Any further enquiries please leave a comment too.

THANK YOU FOR READING! SPREAD THE NEWS AROUND.

xoxo-

Evalee

IG: @EvaleeQX

[Evalee's Diary] 人生

人生中发生的每一件事都有它的原因。九月已到了，我也又快成熟一年，看得懂的东西和事情也越来越多。我也发现我可能也变老了，想法和观念与现代年轻人有一点疏远了。有时候会有一些些代沟。哈哈。

这是一个好现象噢。九月将是一个新的开始！人来来往往，来了一个去了一个。非常的正常，以前的复出只能保留成美丽的回忆。

非常高兴又学到新东西，新的人生体验和交了一些新朋友与对老朋友有更多的了解。友情加深！

我说谢谢啦！

Now switching back to English language.  Was celebrating my birthday at Switch and Xian De Lai few days back. Super early celebration but thanks girls! Really appreciate everything you girls had done for me.

Thank you dear Leon and Ruth too! Happy Birthday to Ruth! It's really very coincident! Really surprise and can't really see her in the dark at first at Switch but then yes! it's her no doubt.

Thank You!

Load and loads of love! 

#blessed

xoxo- Evalee~

[Evalee's Dairy] Fat Kids Meet-Up on a Wednesday

Fat Kids is a nick given by....

I don't know manx seriously. LOL. 

Basically it's a group of girls who eat, and we watched "Fat Kids are Harder to Kidnap" at Esplanade together. So we named our Whatsapp group "Fat Kids BBQ"
BBQ supposed to happen but was postponed because of me. HEHE.

(Source: http://sea.blouinartinfo.com/news/story/900962/fat-kids-are-harder-to-kidnap-31-plays-in-one-hour )

We eat to get fatter so that the kidnappers will have a harder time to kidnap us. 

ヽ(ヅ)ノ

HAHAHAA. Joking. 

We headed to.....what seems like a place that sell only pizza for lunch.

I was surprised they do sell tasty Sides, Salads and Spaghetti as well.

SKINNY PIZZA

But! Let's warm that stomach up first!

With nice tea.

Squid Ink Skinny Pizza as recommended by Josc. Apparently, I never had black Squid Ink before because I always thought that it's going to taste awful. But to my surprise it's awesome! ♥

The Salad that we had, and the Tuna taste freaking awesome! I prefer the tuna to the veggies on the plate. The green veggie does taste a little bitter but for healthy sake, I ate it! LOL. 

(。●́‿●̀。)

The tasty side that I mentioned earlier on. It's made entirely with pumpkin and it's sugar coated!

Yummy much?!

 ヽ(^o^)ノ

We weren't feeling full yet so we ordered an addition Spaghetti.

I had a great time with the girls, accompanied with great food and recommendations.

By the way SKINNY PIZZA is at PLAZA SINGAPURA. I mean at least the one we went to is at PS.

Yeap yeap, go and try their food. Not as bad as I always assumed it to be.

ASSUMPTION KILLS.

(ﾉﾟ▽ﾟ)ﾉ Here's Wei Ting. Say HIIIIII! LOL. 

┗(＾0＾)┓ "DRUM ROLL" JOSC!

SAY HELLOOOOO. HAHAHAA!

Ok. I am going to sleep now. Goodnight! 

＼(o￣∇￣o)/ Σ(￣。￣ノ) ヾ(。￣□￣)ﾂ

-xoxo-

[Acting/ Filming] KES 253

I decided to start blogging about my filming & acting experiences starting from now.
With that said it includes behind the scene stuff. I hope you guys will enjoy reading it! ♥

SO let me start off with KES 253 - Well, this is not the latest production that I've done but it's one of the production that I have the most to say.

O.K!
Have you watched KES 253 Episode 7 be it on Suria Channel or Xinmsn???
You did? GREAT! Thanks for watching! ^_^
You didn't? NVM. I don't want to friend you already. LOL! (Kidding) (─‿‿─)

RANDOM: 
I am actually part of a Suria Drama!!! HAHAHA! So what's next? Vasantham maybe?!
╍●‿●╍

It was a great experience because I get to practice my crying skills again.

The last time I cried for about 2 hours was when I did a mandarin short film "KARMA". That was even more draining and tired as it was a night scene. But nevertheless satisfying for overcoming that challenge.

You can catch some cuts of my crying scene in "KARMA" 《阴果》Yin Guo, near the middle/end of my acting reel below.



My role in KES 253 is a very small role, I am playing a Kidnapped Victim. I felt that this is a pretty challenging role because I foresee crying, wimping and whatever that will showcase my acting abilities.
Even though I am aware that the camera might not catch me and I might not be seen but even so, let's take it like an acting lesson and practice them.

Second reason is because I have friends that are going to be in the same scene and some of them are going to be filming on the same set same day with me. *Yay* HAHAHA.

True enough, I have to admit that the best part is when you know people on set, that will make you even more comfortable. I am always happy to see familiar faces on set be it production crew or fellow actors and actresses. ^_^

I am so relieved that the director is super nice and I like it when they don't give us pressure. That will really help us a lot in doing our scene. ^_^ Thank you for the guidance!

♥ ♥ ♥

Aside from crying & wailing in the scene and getting myself all so dirty and sweaty, I have to be tied up in ropes, drag in and out of room for a "million" times, get thrown into the room on the ground, get whipped with belt by the Kidnappers and be a repeated victim. LOL.

Yes! I was used two times, pretending that I am a different victim! That's what we call recycle!

HOW?
Just change clothes and re-image the hairstyle and all to make me look like another person.


Just ignore my cui face, totally naked face without anything nice on it. lol.
(◡‿◡✿)

The difference between smiling and not.

♥ The awesome people! ♥

The whole filming lasted for about half a day!
And here is the final product --> about 30s. HAHAHA!
At least can see my face. ≧◔◡◔≦



Appreciating everything will make us a happy person!

THANK YOU SPEECH:  ☜(ˆ▽ˆ)

Firstly, I want to thanks Eve for offering the role to me! Happy working with her last time & this time too! Thank you Eve! [ Even though I am not sure if you're going to see this post. lol (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)]

Thank you Oak3 Productions too! The directors, production crew and all fellow actors, actresses & talents for making the entire process all so fun & worthwhile! （‐＾▽＾‐）

Till then we meet again!
≧◔◡◔≦
xoxo-

Evalee Lin Qiao Xuan 林巧頨

Hello!

Yes, I have a new Chinese name as most of you might already know.

林巧頨 Lin Qiao Xūan 

is my new chinese name.

You are worth more than GOLD

When you are feeling down...

xoxo-

(The power of music)

不完美的完美

聽聽我的心聲 

生命是一塊鐵 沸騰才能刻寫

明天的我 是不朽或浮生一瞥

人體內6公升血 一顆顆都如酒濃烈 

為愛瘋狂 沒醉過的人不了解 

哪怕偶爾得轉換起點

哪怕選手缺少優先權 沒得選 

我將猶豫都甩開 

將目光都鎖在 同一個終點 

前方越多的風險 冒險 

越容易領先 

我要我是誰 就算夢未遂

也不讓現實這土匪 

把理想都盜走 到老才數著後悔 

感動是纖維 紡織後成為一張被 

你將我包圍 

你的愛沒白給 

雖然我並不完美 

心意堅定如鐵 故事我自己寫

你別看我 安靜但內心很狂野 

我體內所有的血 一分鐘都不肯停歇 

所謂瘋狂 是不管他人的誤解 

雖然我並不完美

雖然我不完美 

I'll be somebody someday 

因為我不完美

才會是獨特的誰